Friday, October 19, 2007

Best job in the world

Today, I did more research for my book.
This time I went to Idaho Springs. Thirty miles west of Denver.

This is one of my favorite views.
Just a few minutes up I-70.

Idaho Springs, like most mountain towns, has
a cute main street with shops and restaurants.


Plenty of places to buy fudge (I got hubby
a piece of handmade chocolate).

The bear is wise.
But the main event, the reason for my trip,
was the hot springs. Since I know my characters better now,
I know gambling isn't what takes them to the mountains.
What takes them to the mountains is the Indian Springs resort.
And because I want those scenes to be authentic
I needed to go experience the healing waters
along the Soda Creek for myself.
I booked a reservation for a Mother Earth wrap. A 30-minute
massage followed by being painted with clay and sea kelp mixed
together and wrapped in towels and blankets and
lying under a heat lamp for 30 minutes.
Before you do any spa treatment, you soak and steam.
Either in a private bath (which is where I am here;
I took this picture myself) or in the geothermal caves
(where I went after this, but since there were other undressed women there
I thought it wise not to bring out a camera).
The resort recommends 30-60 minutes of soaking before you
do a spa treatment. Worked for me.
Yes, researching a novel is a dirty job. But somebody had to do it.
And if I needed any proof I'm on the right track, I got it.
I asked my massage therapist if she saw clients
with lupus. (One of my characters has this condition and
I wanted to make sure that a person with lupus
would benefit from the hot springs and massage.)
Her answer was yes. As a matter of fact, one of her
very good friends has been in remission from lupus
for 12 years due to diet and exercise and other
natural methods. She gave me her contact information.
My character, Billie, is into diet, yoga, meditation and
other means to keep her lupus in check.
Destiny, no?
As for me, my skin feels great and my body feels like I've run a marathon (in a good way). I will be going back!

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Only Breath
Not Christian or Jew or Muslim, not Hindu,
Buddhist, sufi, or zen. Not any religion
or cultural system. I am not from the East
or the West, not made out of the ocean or up
from the ground, not natural or ethereal, not
composed of elements at all. I do not exist,
am not an entity in this world or the next,
did not descend from Adam and Eve or any
origin story. My place is placeless, a trace
of the traceless. Neither body or soul.
I belong to the beloved, have seen the two
worlds as one and that one call to and know,
first, last, outer, inner, only that
breath breathing human being.
-Rumi (who died in 1273)

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Reader's Circle

This is why I have hopes for reaching a wide audience.

Oh, and check out the Orange Mint and Honey playlist at the bottom of this blog. (If you have speakers at work, you might want to turn them down.) Some tunes from the great Nina Simone and others will be The Pajama Gardener's soundtrack.

Thanks to Sherry's site Sage and Thyme where I discovered this program!

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Miracle of miracles


Look outside your windows boys and girls cause pigs just might be flyin' by! The Colorado Rockies are in the World Series. The who are in the wha? I know. The Rockies. After winning 21 of 22 straight games. They're my new heroes. I've never been a baseball fan before, but watching this team go from nobodies to National League champs was very inspiring. Seeing them do the unbelievable-win game after game after game-makes me think of what unbelievable things I can do. Like write 1,000-2,000 words a day, every day. So far, so good. In fact...come closer I have to whisper this...I think I know my story all the way through. The Rockies won the pennant and I'm going to get my book done on time. Folks are ordering ice water in hell as we speak!

Monday, October 15, 2007

And Tyler Perry's movie did just fine

without mainstream media support. #1 at the box office this weekend.

Standing tall

I spoke with my grandmother the other night. She's been living on her own for the first time in her life since April when Papa died. She's a tiny little thing, and while we all knew she was strong, I think we expected her to fall apart without him. She's an old-school woman who let her man run the household (even though like most black women of her generation she worked, and worked hard). But she didn't fall apart.

Someone shot at her house a couple of weeks ago. Shot bullets at her house! While she was home! She hit the ground and called the police. They told her that a house getting shot, even the house of an 85-year-old woman, wasn't a priority. They had cases where people had been shot and they had to investigate those first. They'd get to her whenever. Well, she didn't accept that. She called the daughter of somebody's cousin who knows so and so (this is how it works in small towns). This daughter of somebody's cousin is a forensics investigator. She went to the house and called the cops and told them to get somebody over NOW. And they did. After a thorough investigation (helicopters, squad cars, the whole shebang) they think it was some random idiot. (Lovely, aren't they? The random idiots.)

This is the big part: my grandmother didn't tell anybody in the family about this. She handled it herself. My father came into town to visit her and her next door neighbor told him what happened. This is what she told me about it on the phone: "I had to work through this myself and find some peace about it in my own mind before I told anybody else. I was afraid at first, but I prayed on it and I'm not afraid anymore. I'm really not. So please don't worry about me. I walked on Billy's [my grandfather] feet for 60 years. I was like a baby learning how to walk when he died. I didn't know how to write a check or pay any bills. But now I do. Now I'm standing tall. And I'm proud of me."

I'm proud of her too!

Friday, October 12, 2007

Why Did I Get Married?

I'm one of the lucky ones. I had all my marital doubt immediately after getting married. Once I got through the first year, the rest has been easy. I know why I got married and I'm very glad I did.

Tyler Perry's movie, Why Did I Get Married?, opens today, and I'm looking forward to it. I really enjoyed Daddy's Little Girls, and I like a lot of these actors, so I have high hopes. But here's something to think about: In the "mainstream media" (and I get a lot of it: NY Times, Denver Post, Rocky Mountain News, New York magazine, The New Yorker, O Magazine, Vanity Fair), I've seen not one review, not one article. (Though I did see a review on E! Online today, where I swiped this photo from.) The movie has been all over African American media, and black folks, I'm sure, will support it. But couldn't white people and Latinos and others enjoy a movie about four couples working out their marital issues? If the characters are black, does that mean only blacks can relate?

I bring this up as a black writer (whose debut novel has a black protagonist) who hopes for a wide readership (Let's say it straight: I want white folks to buy my book. I want Latinas and Asians and anybody and everybody.). But how will they buy it if they don't hear about it? And even if they hear about it, will they read it? There's plenty of opinions out there about the idea that, unless its "literary" whites don't read books about blacks. Call me naive (you won't be the first), but I'm hoping to hit the spot that Terry McMillan, Pearl Cleage and Bebe Moore Campbell hit. These are black women writers of "commercial" fiction that reached a wider audience. A very rare breed, let me tell you.

Oh, one more thing the movie and Orange Mint and Honey have in common: both are set in Colorado.

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Ann Packer


I just got home from Ann Packer's reading at the Tattered Cover for her new book, Songs Without Words. An overview from her website:

In her long-awaited second novel, she takes us on a journey into a lifelong friendship pushed to the breaking point. Expertly, with the keen introspection and psychological nuance that are her hallmarks, she explores what happens when there are inequities between friends, and when the hard won balances of a long relationship are disturbed, perhaps irreparably, by a harrowing crisis.


This is a book with two points of view, which is of particular interest to me as my wip is from two points of view. She read a bit from both character's POV, and hearing her read made me much more interested in the book than anything on the jacket or anything the reviews have said. Proving again that it really is the writing that makes the book, not the promotion.

After she read, she answered questions. I like go to readings/signings, but I have to say people always ask the same questions. It made me wish I had gone prepared with something unique to ask. However, even though they are always the same questions, it's always interesting to hear a writer's response. So some quotes (as best as I can read from my notes):

What's your writing process like?

I really, really rewrite as I write...I'll spend the first hour rewriting from the day before so when I start to generate new stuff, I'm warmed up.

In The Dive from Clausen's Pier [her first novel], you use crafts, and now in this book you use crafts. Can you talk about that? (Actually, this was a great question!)

I think that making things is so important to a healthy life....in making things implicit is hope and I wanted my books to feel hopeful to readers even though they also go to dark places.

Do you outline or start with characters?

I start with a situation and a feeling of people in relation to other people with a sense of something happening so these relationships might change...I'm very organized in life. Writing is a place I get to be more free form.

How do you know when you're done?

When I have a sense that I've written the book I wanted to write.

This part is paraphrasing: She did six revisions of Songs Without Words, and by revisions, she meant rewriting over and over again from start to finish and showing it to people after each revision. She did nine revisions for The Dive from Clausen's Pier.

She was quite warm and funny. The event person from Tattered Cover introduced me to Packer as a newbie novelist, and Packer was kind enough to say she would keep a look out for my name. I gave her one of my cards, as I did to a woman in the audience who overhead and asked about my book!

Two takeaways for me. One: Ann Packer is a NY Times best-selling author and still had only about 20 people in the audience. Getting turnout is hard even for well-known writers. Two: "in making things implicit is hope." It made me feel good about trying to make good sentences and good stories. The hope is that they'll mean something to someone else.

Oh, and three: The TC event person and Packer's escort knew of my publicist and had good things to say about her!

On middles, dark woods and boots

In the middle of the road of my life I awoke in the dark wood where the true way was wholly lost. - Dante's Divine Comedy


Having found myself lost in the middle of my book AGAIN, I did what I typically do. I went back to the beginning and tried to find a new way through my story. Only to find myself lost in a different dark wood. But, and this is big, this time I'm not going back to the beginning to hack my way through again. This time I decided to start where I am and go from here, knowing that some things will have to change in the set up of the story to make where I am now and where I'm going make sense. But I'll wait until I get all the way to the end, to the other side of the forest, and then I'll follow my trail back to the beginning. I have hopes.

One thing that always changes as I write is my cast. I start out with way too many characters because I'm not really sure what they'll eventually mean to my main people. So I have to let them participate for a while and get to know them. During the first couple of trips through the first 100 pages, they all seem to have a role in the story, but then I get to the middle a couple of times and can see that, no, a bunch of them don't belong after all. Some of them really lovely people, kind people, children. But if they can't help me get to the other side of the dark wood, they gotta go! So far, I've given 4 characters the boot, and I believe I know now who my main secondary characters are (there are 3 of them) and how they're going to help us all get to the other side.

I have to say that one of my minor characters (not 1 of the above) just cracks me up, and I can't wait to reveal him to readers. He's based on a neighbor of a relative who I haven't met, but heard just one line about. One really good line. He's a nice companion through these woods. His only job is to make me smile from time to time, and he's really good at it.

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

Monday, October 08, 2007

End times

Today was my last day at my old job. Gulp. The one that supposedly ended over a month ago. Well, me being me, it extended for a bit and probably would have extended until forever, except hubby stepped in and very lovingly and wisely reminded me that I have other things to attend to right now. So, until the end of the year, I'm going to lighten up on the freelance work and finish my novel. At least the first draft, so I can turn in something I'm proud of in March.

I packed up my cubicle and turned in my security key, and it felt weird. I have a meeting with my former boss on Wednesday and I'll check my work email a few times this month just to make sure nobody is contacting me with something important, but basically, I'm done...for a while. (Can you see what I mean about how I let things extend?)

Onward.

Saturday, October 06, 2007

L.A. Book Buyers Needed!

Sad news this weekend about another indie bookstore in danger of going under. This one is Eso Won, an African American bookstore that I happen to know is a really cool store. I signed there a few years ago, and am supposed to go back next spring...but it's not looking good. From the L.A. Times:

After 20 years of hawking books -- some by popular authors; others, scholarly works, with rare and exotic titles -- L.A.'s leading independent bookstore specializing in writings by African Americans is facing bankruptcy.

Indeed, Eso Won may be closing its doors by the end of the year.

"We are suffering from what other independent bookstores have found -- that it's tough to compete against the Internet and the big chains," said James Fugate, a co-owner of the Leimert Park store.

People are rallying around the store, leading campaigns to buy books. However, the story goes on to say:

Encouraged by calls to help their struggling establishment, Fugate and Thomas Hamilton, the store's other co-owner, welcome the help, but also see the likelihood of closing as something they may not be able to avoid. "If people decide they don't want us, then it's time for us to leave," Hamilton said.

Let's hope that's not the case.

Friday, October 05, 2007

Listen up!



There's going to be an audio book of Orange Mint and Honey!

Don't know who will read it - Angela Bassett are you out there?! - but it will be out April 1st.

This is one of the best things about getting published--random bits of unexpected joy.

Thursday, October 04, 2007

Kim Reid's going on NPR!

October 10th! Kristin Nelson has the deets (as they say in the gossip columns). Way to go, Kim!

New readers

Don't despair writers, a new wave of readers is coming. I just got back from my weekly reading session with Head Start kids. This is a good class. They love books, always asking, Read another one! I think they like stories even a bit more than they like stickers. And if you know any 3-, 4- or 5-year-olds, you know that's big. I hope it lasts.

It's a joy to read to them. Though, sometimes it's a little sad. Last week one of the books was Llama Llama Red Pajama (who better to read that one?) in which Mama Llama snuggles with her baby at bedtime. One of the girls said, I wish my mama was like that. Just about broke my heart.

They can also be funny. Last year, a kid who couldn't say combination s words told this story: One day my grandma got payed by a kunk and she tank!

They tell ALL their families' business. I heard a kid in the hallway today telling his teacher his mom got pulled over by the cops. Bet that's something she didn't really want him spreading around!

You won't be surprised to know that one of my current characters just so happens to be a Head Start teacher. Too much good material there to pass up.

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

It's health insurance, stupid!

Good Lord! Vetoing a bipartisan child health bill?! How stupid do you have to be not to realize people in this country WANT HEALTH INSURANCE! We need health insurance! I was recently denied coverage because of a pre-existing condition. I just got off the phone with a broker. She says I can "probably" get coverage, but I'll pay a higher rate or have the condition excluded from coverage. So the thing I need health insurance for might not be covered. Great. Perfect.

Bushie thinks he has the answer: Just go to an emergency room. Which, of course, is one of the reasons health care is so expensive is because too many people already do just that. Talk to anybody who's ever worked in a hospital and they will tell you 1) They don't want people showing up for primary care in an ER and 2) ERs do send folks away!

Seriously, can we please bring on Hillary or Obama or Edwards and get this show on the road?!!!

What's the buzz?

Get it? Bee? Buzz?


Judy Merrill Larsen, author of All the Numbers, read a galley of Orange Mint and Honey and gave me quite a compliment:

“In Orange Mint and Honey, Brice deftly shows the importance and joy of understanding our past and not only forgiving those who hurt us, but loving them in spite of that hurt. We see Shay on her journey to discovering who she is and all that she can be--even when she's not sure she's ready to meet the person she's about to become. Readers of Terry McMillan and Bebe Moore Campbell will find a new writer to watch.” - Judy Merrill Larsen, author of All the Numbers (also a Ballantine Reader's Circle book!)

Wow, Judy! I'm blown away to be compared to these writers! Thanks so much!!





Monday, October 01, 2007

Welcome Kim Reid!


I finished No Place Safe yesterday, turning the pages as quick as I could. It's a great memoir about a young girl, her little sister and her mother (more about her in a minute), and about a city in crisis...only parts of the city didn't notice. For those who don't know, the crisis is the Atlanta Child Murders. Twenty-nine African Americans, most of them boys, were killed between 1979-1981. Kim's mother, the first black woman investigator in the Fulton County DA's office*, gets assigned to the case. To give you a feel for the book, a few excerpts:


Ma wanted me to watch her clean her gun so I'd learn. I was the oldest, and she'd already given me my first shooting lesson with her personal revolver, which consisted of shooting cans off tree stumps on some family land out in the country. First, I had to get used to the gun's weight, how to steady it when holding it out in front of me. Then, Ma taught me how to use the site on top of the .38's barrel to line up my target. She stood behind me and braced me the first time I experienced the gun's kick from a fired round, and I remember smelling Chanel No 5 and gunpowder, a nauseating mix of sweet and acrid, like burned brown sugar.


Ok, so about "Ma." If ever a woman was born to inhabit a book, it's her! She's tough as hell, yet all girl too. In fact, when Kim moves out and gets her first apartment, her mother gives her ".38 and her first set of crystal wine glasses because 'two things a woman needs to know how to do is protect herself and entertain well.'"


As you can see, there's humor here and heartbreak too:


Soon after the boy's body was found, someone-maybe his mother, an angry and powerless grandfather, or a weeping aunt-placed a white wooden cross on the side of the road, marking the spot. I rode my bike up there, wanted to see if there was any clue that would tell me the boy had not died painfully, that his last place on earth was a good one. I didn't want the kind of clues that cops look for, physical things that told secrets of the flesh. I wanted to feel something move through me in that place, maybe God's presence, or something bigger than me, or the boy, or all of the people whose hearts were broken when his body was found.


I can't say it strongly enough: Read this book. And for a fictionalized exploration of the subject, read Tayari Jone's Leaving Atlanta. It'll break your heart. In a good way.


Now...on to our chat with Kim Reid (if you have questions for Kim, leave them in the comments):


Pajama Gardener. What was it like to write such a personal story? What were your mother's and the rest of your family's reactions?

Kim Reid: Some memoirists find writing their story cathartic, but I didn’t go through that, maybe because it happened 25 years ago and I had some distance from it. It was more like going home after being away a long while, a mostly enjoyable experience.

After the investigation ended, a writer approached my mother about collaborating on a true-crime book. She was interested, but didn’t connect with the writer. Years later, when I told her I wanted to write the story, she was really open to it. Other family members have cameos, but I kept the story focused on me, my sister and mother, and they both let me tell the story the way I wanted to. They wouldn’t read it until it was sold, though I told them I’d take anything out they didn’t want to share. They didn’t ask for any changes.


PG: A lot of people have family stories that they think about writing, but don't go on to actually pursue them. I applaud you for following through! When did you decide you wanted to write about these experiences? And what made you go from thinking about it to actually doing it?

KR: I grew up wanting to be a writer and wanting to tell my mother’s story in particular, but I didn’t actually start until I read an excerpt from a book about the investigation. It painted cops on the case as unsympathetic, but I knew a different story. I decided to tell it the way I remembered it. It started out as my mother’s story, but as I wrote, it turned into my story and how those two years shaped my coming-of-age.

PG: What was the hardest part of the story to tell?

KR: Though it has true-crime elements, I didn’t write this as true-crime, so I didn’t include the details of the homicides though I read about them during research. That was hard. I used the investigation as my timeline and recalling each case was the most difficult part. Remembering how it was to be a kid during that time – being afraid of watching the news, no more after-dark basketball games in someone’s yard, having your parents freak out if you got home five minutes late because they were scared you’d been snatched – recalling all of that was tough.

PG: What kind of research did this book take? Did you interview your mom? Did you look at old newspaper clips? Read your old journals?

KR: All of the above. I interviewed my mother, plus went through case notes, newspaper clips, and TV interview tapes that she saved. By the time I began writing in 2004, the Freedom of Information Act had made previously closed case files accessible to the public. I read through hundreds of pages of FBI files. My ninth grade English teacher made us keep a personal journal, and luckily I’ve always saved my writing. That helped me recall some of the personal stories in the memoir. I interviewed other members of my family, and of course, relied on my memory for descriptions of places and personal events.


PG: What has surprised you most about getting published?

KR: Getting published! Selling a memoir when you aren’t famous is a long shot. I had something of a platform because it’s about a well-known case, but barely. No Place Safe is my first writing credit – I hadn’t published any short stories or anything. My agent had the manuscript on submission for a year before it sold, and we came close so many times, including revising on spec and meeting editors in New York who eventually passed because they thought the story was too dated. It was a long year, but it was a great experience in learning about this business, and it is a business the minute you decide to publish. Your ‘baby’ becomes a commodity, and I think that’s an important thing for new writers to know.

I was also surprised by how uncomfortable I became as my publication date drew near. I’m a fairly private person. I know – so I go and write a memoir. Good thing I didn’t think about that while I was writing or I never would have finished it. But I wouldn’t have told the story I wanted to if I’d novelized it.


PG: What's next for you? Will you stick with nonfiction? If you're switching to fiction, will you stay with the same kind of family-drama story?

KR: I won’t say never to nonfiction, but I doubt it. It’s great knowing how the story goes, but I don’t find much freedom in it. The novel I’m working on now does have family drama involved, and I didn’t think about it until you asked the question, but I guess I do like to write family drama. The story explores marriage, infidelity and the violence that can come of it. I’m a cop’s kid, my stepfather is a criminal lawyer, and my husband has worked in a police department or a court system for years. That may be why I’m fascinated by crime and the emotions that drive people to it. Those two elements will likely always flavor my stories.
PG: Thanks Kim!
*A correction.

Saturday, September 29, 2007

Book meme

Lisa tagged me, and since it's about books, I can't resist.

Total number of books?

Between hubby and me, somewhere over a thousand, would be my guess.

Last book read?

Lottery, by Patricia Wood.

Last book bought?

No Place Safe, which I got from Amazon yesterday. It is a page-turner!! Stay tuned for a chat with the author, Kim Reid, right here on Monday.

Five meaningful books?

This is a hard one. I'm going to surprise you with my first one and say: Valley of the Dolls. It, itself, wasn't so meaningful, but it represents all the trashy books I used to read in junior high when my family was falling apart and I needed a place to hide. My mother and her insurance office co-workers used to trade books by writers like Jacqueline Susann, Harold Robbins, and Sidney Sheldon. I'd read whatever she brought home. Most people had To Kill a Mockingbird and A Tree Grows in Brooklyn for their YA reading. I had The Other Side of Midnight. Thankfully, she moved on to Stephen King, and I spent 10th grade reading The Shining and The Stand, amongst others. I used to go to gym class and tell the girls his stories in the locker room.

Another YA shocker: Gone with the Wind. Weird, I know. Weird for a young black girl to be enamored of a book that puts such a false gloss on slavery. The happy singing slaves made me cringe, but I loved Scarlett. She was smart and strong in a world that didn't want its women smart and strong, and I related to that. And the ending used to make me weep for her. Now I'm with Rhett: if they take that long to love you back, the hell with 'em.

Your Blues Ain't Like Mine, by Bebe Moore Campbell. My role model.

A Return to Love, by Marianne Williamson. When my mother was dying of breast cancer, we saw Williamson on Oprah, and my mother got all excited about this book and decided I could read it to her (cancer had spread to her brain, blinding her). I ordered the book from a little indie (this was before Amazon). It came in about a week later, but by that time, my mother had lost interest in most things attached to this world. I read the book myself after she died.

Waiting to Exhale, by Terry McMillan. It's the one that opened the door for writers like me. I remember buying it in hardcover soon after my mother's death, and wanting it because the protagonist starts out in Denver and works in PR. I live in Denver and worked in PR at the time! It was a match made in heaven.


Five people to tag:

Sassy Sistah
Tayari Jones
Iyan and Egusi Soup
Judy Merril Larsen
Jamie Ford

Hope y'all can play!

Friday, September 28, 2007

Did you know...

Lighthouse has posted audio of the first part of the Tobias Wolff talk? Hear him read "Bullet in the Brain" and part of Old School.

about Dearreader.com? She's got a dozen or so different online book clubs (she emails you samples from books), and one of them is a pre-pub book club, so you can read the book before it's released.

that TwoMindsFull is serializing their first book on their blog? Another way to get a story in bite-sized pieces.

the post office has pretty flower stamps? I'm thinking they'll help get through the winter.

there's still plenty to do in the garden in fall? Fernlea Flowers has excellent fall gardening tips.

Tayari's got a great post about the trauma of reading good books? YA authors, especially, will be interested.

Thursday, September 27, 2007

Another event*


Saturday, March 8, 2008, an evening of books and live jazz at Westside Books, 3434 W. 32nd (Highlands neighborhood). "Stories for All Seasons" will begin at 7:30 p.m. Free admission and refreshments.


*Next time, I'll wait and post groupings together. Got a little excited today! :)

Save the date!

Book launch party

Tuesday, February 26, 2008 at the LoDo (lower downtown) Tattered Cover.
6-7:30: Party featuring Crystal Collins and pianist and bassist (hubby) doing jazz & pop standards, and free food and drink (because I am not above bribing people to buy my book)
7:30-8:30: Reading/Signing


We'll be celebrating writers and readers and Nina Simone's birthday (February 21st).
The Farmer's Almanac says February is going to be cold, but normal snowfall. Let's hope! Wear something orange; it'll keep you warm.

Be there or be square (or do like me and be there AND be square)!

More to come!

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

What would be your last message?

The Writer's Group has a link to a video of Professor Randy Pausch of Carnegie-Mellon University. He's dying of cancer and gave this lecture to his students. It's not morbid. It's extremely touching and inspiring. He's got an amazing spirit. Pausch's website has this link to advice on writing. (Thanks One Heart Dancing for the writing link!)

Monday, September 24, 2007

Pajama Chat with Kim Reid!

Coming soon to the Pajama Gardener: a chat with Kim Reid, author of the memoir, No Place Safe. Here's an overview: The summer of 1979 marks the start of the Atlanta Child Murders, when a serial killer began hunting black children, taking twenty-nine lives in two years in a case that remains controversial to this day. That year, thirteen-year-old Kim Reid’s life changed forever, along with that of her mother, a lead detective on the investigation.

Publisher's Weekly says, "Reid maintains a lively sense of dialogue and characterization, and her memoir is an affecting tale of a girl's transformation in a climate of fear and pervasive, bleak Southern racism."
Elyse Singleton, author of This Side of the Sky, says, “Though a child herself, Kim Reid sat on the edge of a front row seat to one of the twentieth century’s most bizarre and baffling murder cases. With No Place Safe she delivers her experience as a compelling story told from a sensitive gut and a formidable intellect. A narrative woven with strands of threatened innocence and Southern gothic gives No Place Safe the texture of a modern, urban To Kill a Mockingbird.”
Sounds intriguing, yes?
Kim's pub date is Oct. 2, but the book should be in the stores starting tomorrow. How exciting! Look for her chat here Oct. 1.

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Happy Fall!

Chinese Goldenrain Tree
(drought-tolerant, blossoms yellow flowers in July and you get fall color!)


Autumn is a second spring when every leaf is a flower. ~Albert Camus

Saturday, September 22, 2007

From nonfiction to fiction

Amy asks why I decided to write a novel after writing nonfiction. In case anyone else was wondering, I'll answer here. I always wanted to write a novel, but for a while I didn't have the confidence to believe I could. With a background writing articles, I figured I could write nonfiction, but my dream was always to write a novel. I've always loved to tell stories.

A couple of things happened that gave me the courage to try: One, I married a man very supportive of my writing. Someone who believed I could write whatever I wanted to write. He didn't say, Write a novel, but with him around playing music, I was inspired to write more. And the more I wrote the more I started to think maybe I could pull it off.

Having people in my life who believe in my writing is a gift beyond words, and I'm very grateful for it. Some people find it threatening when you pursue a dream. It makes them have to look at why they aren't pursuing their own dreams. So to all those who have NOT been threatened, but rather inspired and encouraged, I say thank you from the bottom of my heart!

The thing that made me start writing in the first place was that my mother died. I knew many of the stories I would tell would come from the ghosts of my childhood, and I couldn't imagine writing for publication (fiction or nonfiction) when she was alive. Three months after she died, I wrote an op-ed for The Denver Post. Told the whole city my opinion. About six months after that, I was writing my first nonfiction book. That was fifteen years ago, and as I've gotten more accustomed to exposing myself through my writing, I'm less afraid of what others think. And, because my family has been so supportive of my writing, I'd like to think my mother would be too. I know she would be proud: I got my love of reading from her.

The biggest surprise to me about writing fiction is that it feels far more revealing than nonfiction. Anybody else feel that way? With nonfiction, I know I'm choosing what parts of myself to show. But with fiction, things come out that I have no control over, and that's a little scary. But I love it and I hope to write many more novels.

Friday, September 21, 2007

Disconnecting

Ello's a lawyer and she's got a must-read post about legal issues involved with blogging.

Yesterday, I found a groovy new place to write. I will not divulge because I don't want it overrun with Denver writers. :) It was great to be away from all the things I allow to distract myself. I don't have wireless access, so no blogosphere or internets. No fighting cats. No chores. Just me and my lap top (and a guy doing homework and a few women having a business meeting). I actually got some work done. I'm going back next week.

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Deadlines are good for you!

Here's excellent news from the September/October issue of Wild Oats Marketplace:

To maintain a healthy immune system, "stay somewhat stressed." The article by Tony Farrell goes on to state:

Scientists have recently discovered that although passive stress (like watching violent TV shows) will generally lower your body's production of certain immunity proteins, more active stress, such as trying to meet a deadline, can actually increase your levels of disease-fighting immunoglobulin. to give yourself some "good" stress, set goals (for hobbies, work, or redecorating) that require some effort to reach them.

Writers must be some pretty healthy folks! :)

And speaking of healthy immune systems, I had my first fall bowl of oatmeal yesterday. I added a few drops of almond extract to the cooking water (along with a dash of salt and a few dashes of cinnamon). I served it with sliced peaches and a little milk. OMG. So good. Going back for more.

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

The ARC is here!!!


I came home and found a lovely UPS package from Random House on my doorstep. My ARCs. Very cool. It's really a book now! Though, as you may know, this is not what the cover will look like. The advance reader's copy is for promotional purposes. The tentative marketing plan:
National review and feature attention
National and local radio interviews
Author tour
Author available for phone chats with book clubs
Advertising in African American Connection
Online promotions
Reader's Circle marketing
Feature in the One World Spring 2008 sampler sent to bookstores and beauty salons across the country
Whaddya think? Time to get with a publicist and get to work!

Seeing, pt 3

On my writing walk yesterday, I had an idea so central to my story I literally bonked myself on the head. I'd explain, but I'd have to go into too much detail about my story and even then, I'm sure you'd just think Duh! It's so obvious and solves such a huge problem (at least I think it does now) that I can't believe I didn't think of it before...except that's how these things work.

Going down a familiar street, in a new direction, I noticed that someone's garage door had been tagged. The homeowners spray-painted this over the grafitti: Love, Kindness, Respect = Power.

On a different topic, here's Lalita Tademy on getting into the heads of her ancestors while writing Cane River:

It took me nine months to write the first draft of this book. And I spent those nine months everyday, never a break, on a plantation, during the Civil War, during the reconstruction, or in the Jim Crow South. I was totally immersed in this world.

Immersion. That's what Patricia Wood spoke about too. That might be the key, rather than amount of time spent. You can read the rest of Tademy's interview about her two novels at LitMinds Blog.

Monday, September 17, 2007

Women in prison need books

Tayari Jones has a great post up now about the Women's Prison Book Project. I'm going to send some books, and I hope you will too. Tayari's got the address.

Seeing, pt 2


So, I'm trying to see better, to broaden my horizons as a person and as a writer. The other day I took a writing walk and mixed it up a bit by heading south on the street I usually take north (and vice versa). It's amazing how different things looked.

Speaking of seeing things differently, check out this image by Mark Fischer. It's a picture of what a whale song looks like. Yes, an image of sound. He uses a technique that processes digital signals and turns them into visual art (many of them mandelas). He's got images of the sounds of birds, whales and dolphins. Very cool stuff!




Sunday, September 16, 2007

Patricia Wood speaks

Ello's got an interview with Patricia Wood, author of Lottery. Check it out. She answers the $64,000 question: How the hell do you write a book in 3 months?

Writers on the town

(Hi Olufunke!)

Yesterday's Lighthouse event with Tobias Wolff was a great success. He read from "Bullet in the Brain," a short story in The Night in Question, and from his novel Old School. Then he talked about his life as a writer and teacher (he taught with Raymond Carver). He was thoroughly accessible, kind, engaging and funny.

After his Q&A with Eli Gottlieb, author of The Boy Who Went Away, we went to Tamayo's rooftop for a private fundraising dinner, which was also fab.

Highlights of the night? I met Lisa at Eudaemonia! (If you look very closely, Tobias Wolff is standing behind us in the picture.) And Andrea Dupree was kind enough to announce my forthcoming book (along with several other Lighthouse writers' new book deals), which led to Tobias Wolff applauding me.

Saturday, September 15, 2007

It came. I saw. I conquered.

It came yesterday with a slight whish through the mail slot. It used to enter the house like a bomb, like fireworks, like a gospel choir. The See's Candies catalog. I used to go through it and circle my favorites (sometimes numbering them in order of deliciousness) and crossing out the ones I hated (chocolate-covered ginger sounds good, but bleeck; tasted like medicine!). Seriously. I was like a kid with the Toys R Us Christmas catalog. (A quirk of mine that tickles my best friend so much I'm going to see if it works in my book.)

Then I went off sugar and I feared the catalog. I came home and found it with the rest of the mail and picked it up and raced it to recycling, holding it away from me like a stinky diaper or a vial of crack (does crack come in a vial?). I didn't want to be tempted. Let me be clear: Godiva, Ghirardelli, Cadbury, Hershey's, nothing next to See's. If you can eat sugar and you haven't had the See's experience, hustle on over to the website now. You'll thank me (or hate me, depending on how hooked you get). If you need to limit sugar, like moi, try this. You'll really thank me.

But yesterday the catalog arrived and I opened it, flipped through the pages, and felt nothing. No happy memories about the last butterscotch square (chocolate-covered brown sugar and butter; #1 in deliciousness) that melted on my tongue. No desire. No craving. It had no hold on me. I looked at it and put it in the recycling bin like any other flyer. And today, going to the site to get the url, I noticed this. My holiday chocolate-ordering just got a whole lot easier. Life is sweet, my friends.

Friday, September 14, 2007

Good news

There's a philosophy amongst "new age" folks that to protect one's own emotional and spiritual health, one should avoid the bad news of the day. That reading or watching news about war, genocide, natural disasters, poverty, homelessness, rape and murder negatively affects our moods and mental and physical health.

To some degree, I believe this is true. There are days when the front section of the NY Times is so grim it jeopardizes my sanity and the health of my heart. (For example, how could Bush even form his lips to use the word "success" about anything related to the war in Iraq?!) However, checking out too much can't be the answer. In fact, a checked-out citizenry is why we are where we are today. Like the bumper sticker says "If you're not outraged, you're not paying attention."

But today alongside the grim, there's good news on the front page of the Times. San Francisco is making sure all it's citizens have health care. And this "interesting and unusual" (as C would say) item about a building in the Silicon Valley that has good karma. For those who don't have Times' accounts, an excerpt:

The building at 165 University Avenue here has been so good to the Amidi family that Saeed Amidi says it is blessed with good karma. There are some high-technology entrepreneurs who would agree.

Over the years, the nondescript two-story building, which the Amidis have owned since the early 1990s, has been home to a series of Silicon Valley start-ups that became stars. The Amidis, a family of Iranian immigrants, along with their partner Pejman Nozad, also own an Oriental rug store here that has put them in contact with many more entrepreneurs and investors. The store and the building have helped them forge an unusual path into the ranks of Silicon Valley’s kingmakers.

“We believe in good karma, good energy, good feeling, and we believe some buildings have good energy,” Mr. Amidi said, speaking in a slow, accented lilt.

Like many other landlords in the dot-com boom, Mr. Amidi demanded a chance to invest in some of his tenants. One was PayPal, the online payment company, whose sale to eBay for $1.5 billion gave the Amidis a multimillion-dollar payout and a taste for more technology investing.

Logitech, the maker of computer peripherals, and Danger, which created the T-Mobile Sidekick smartphone, have also been tenants. And it was in that building that Google went from toddler to budding technology titan.


This article made me smile.

I can't even imagine the karmic damage of these wars, but as I said, sometimes, it's necessary to look away just for a bit so that when you look back you can see with clear vision. How do you handle the news these days? Shut it out or let it fuel you for action? Anybody writing about the issues of the day?

Thursday, September 13, 2007

One more

Since we've been thinking about first lines over here, thought you'd want to know about the First Lines contest that Ello blogged about. Over 400 first lines to learn from!

Links

Here's a good idea: Be a tourist in your own town. October 5-12 is Denver Arts Week, with dance, theater and concert performances (what no readings?!). If you're in the area, check it out.

Urban Conjure Woman is blogging about re-doing her apartment. As usual, I'd be happy to achieve the "before" look.

My American Melting Pot is blogging again. (Sustenance Scout, you might especially like this site if you don't know about it.)

Jennifer Weiner's daughter has nappy hair. Embrace it Jennifer (Anne Lamott did), and get her this book.

And Elizabeth's got boogie fever.

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Lottery


Okay, she wrote the book in 3 months?! Now, I've got to read it! How? How do people do that? Do I need to move to Hawaii? Because I would. For my art, I would suffer like that. My friend Marisol wrote The Lady the Chef the Courtesan in 3 months working in the coffee shop at the Tattered Cover. Okay, if coffee drinking and sea air are what it takes....

First lines

How important is the first line of a book? A few weeks ago I bought a stack of remaindered books based on their cover and/or a great first line and couldn't read any of them.

Random first lines from my book case:

My life-my real life-started when a man walked into it, a handsome stranger in a perfectly cut suit, and, yes, I know how that sounds. From Love Walked In by Marisa de Los Santos. Pretty good opener huh? It was a great book too.

I, Doris Weatherall, am in the process of becoming a hateful person, or a snob, or just flat-out bitter. From Flyover States by Grace Grant and P.J. MacAllister, a very funny, enjoyable read.

For more than two hundred years, the owens women have been blamed for everything that has gone wrong in town. From Practical Magic by Alice Hoffman, and every line in the book is perfect.

"Where my panties at?" I asks him. From Getting Mother's Body by Suzan-Lori Parks, and you know you want to keep reading, don't you? And you should. It's amazing.

'Your mum and dad came on a banana boat,' that was what the bully boys at my primary school used to say. From Fruit of the Lemon by Andrea Levy, which I haven't been able to finish yet.

It was a morning thick with winter and a surprising sun. And the light was early. From Daughter by asha bandele. Beautiful, right?


Now, here is the first line from Orange Mint and Honey: I should have known things were getting bad when Nina Simone showed up. Hopefully, it's intriguing. This book had MANY first lines, many opening scenes.

And here is the first line from my wip, Novel 2: If it’s a girl, I’ll name her Samadhi. (And I'm going to cheat a bit and give the whole 1st paragraph) Union in Hindi. Billie Cousins said it out loud, “Samadhi,” and placed seven drops of sunflower oil mixed with lavender and rose essential oils into the palms of her hands.

It's anybody's guess if this remains the opening.

Okay, I showed you mine. You show me yours. What's the opening line to your wip?

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Recovery and discovery

(This pic is from last year. The fence and Virginia creeper are no more.
And that's a good thing.)
Fall is definitely in the air here. Yesterday it was in the 50s; today in the 70s. Years of starting school makes me think of new beginnings in the fall. Today, of course, makes me think of endings as well. If you're grieving any kind of loss, a book that was really helpful to me after my mother died was Life is Goodbye/Life is Hello by Alla Bozarth-Campbell, PhD. A random excerpt:

Pain has a stubborn habit of not going away just because we deny it exists. In fact, the more pain is denied, the deeper it tends to go inside our bodies and souls, and the harder it is to identify and deal with and ultimately grow beyond.

Pain is an essential part of any growth process - the process of growing up, growing old, growing beyond grief. However, in our fast-paced world we have come to expect fast results. We expect to find the cloud with the silver lining without having to spend time looking for it. We have become impatient of processes....Ultimately, the only way to get through something is to get through it - not over, under, or around it, but all the way through it. And it has to take as long as it takes.

Yesterday, I noticed Terrie Williams has a book coming out in January called Black Pain: It Just Looks Like We're Not Hurting. Terrie suffers from depression and is brave enough to talk about it. Publisher's Weekly says the book will have 150,000-copy first printing. I hope they sell those and a few million more. A bunch of us could really use it.

I've written here a little about my own issues. I never really thought of it before, but quite a bit of my writing deals with recovery from something or another. Orange Mint and Honey deals with women in recovery. Nona, the mother, is a recovering alcoholic who goes to AA and has been sober 4 years. Shay, the daughter, starts a journey toward recovery at the beginning of the book. She's an adult child of an alcoholic and finally is forced to deal with how her mother's alcoholism has affected her.

I'm glad more of us are talking about pain and recovery. Bebe Moore Campbell (rest her soul) did a lot toward bringing mental illness in the black community out of the shadows with 72-Hour Hold. Before that, Meri Nana-Ama Danquah's beautiful memoir Willow Weep for Me: A Black Woman's Journey Through Depression shined a light on depression. Another helpful book is Soothe Your Nerves: The Black Woman's Guide to Understanding and Overcoming Anxiety, Panic and Fear by Dr. Angela Neal-Barnett.

My book, Walk Tall, is finally at iUniverse in the process of being reissued. Here is the reading for September 11:

Discovery
Typically, we think of exploration as discovering new lands and faraway places. But the most exciting adventures begin when we discover who we are. When we know who we are, we can achieve anything. When we know who we are, there is no need to pretend. There is no need to lie.

Today, let's investigate inner spaces. Let's venture into new frontiers. Let's discover ourselves. With God's grace we can find ourselves. As the song says, "I once was lost, but now I'm found."

The affirmation is: I am an explorer of my hopes and dreams.

Peace and blessings, everybody. Be well today.

Sunday, September 09, 2007

Retreats

Patricia Wood, author of Lottery, blogged from the Maui Writer's Retreat, and her posts make it sound exactly like I thought it would be: writer heaven on earth. (The only retreat I've gone to was the Iowa Writer's Summer Program. I learned a lot and I'm very glad I went, but Iowa City ain't Maui.) I've wanted to go to this thing for years. And this year I came this close. But then I wimped out because of the expense. Knowing myself and knowing that I might need to bail out of my job so I could finish N2 made me think it was wiser to save my money. Maybe. But I still want to go. So I'm thinking of an incentive for myself. Like, if Orange Mint sells X number of copies, then I can go. Or if I come up with a great N3, then I can go.

But it doesn't get much bigger than selling N1 and N2, so if I didn't let myself go then, I'm going to have to work hard to give myself permission to go next year. Which cuts close to the bone. Is the truth that I didn't believe I deserved to spend $5,000 on myself, on my writing? I'm usually pretty good at saying yes to my "inner artist," but giving myself a trip to Hawaii seemed too big, too much. I'm going to have to work on that.

What do you do to say yes to your inner artist?

Saturday, September 08, 2007

Party like it's 2008!


So the topic of my launch party came up yesterday. Very exciting. I've been daydreaming what it'll be like for years. I want to have orange roses. And a band to do some Nina Simone covers (I have a wonderful singer in mind and as soon as I have a date nailed down, I'm going to ask her). Of course, serve something with orange mint and honey (my book has recipes, which I'll be posting closer to pub date).

But yesterday I was teased that the menu better be right and the venue better be right. I'm starting to get a little anxious (a little like the "one special day" wedding craziness).

With the anthology, the local contributors and I met for dinner at the Fourth Story (which doesn't exist anymore) before our group reading, then we read downstairs to a huge audience at the Tattered Cover, and that was the book launch. And it was fabulous. Put the book on the Denver Post best-seller list.

When my first book came out I had a launch party at my gym, of all places. But it was a fancy gym. (This was back when I was a gym kind of person.) They'd just opened a new coffee bar and the manager offered to do my party for $100. An offer I couldn't refuse. She catered cookies, treats and fancy coffee drinks. Friends brought flowers and champagne and I brought a couple boxes of books to sell. It was great.

And there were other signings and other parties (I'm a big one for stretching out the celebrations.), as I hope there will be with this book. But now I'm a little more in the know about marketing and such so I have higher expectations, I guess. Or maybe it's because I've had all this time to dream. I always imagined a spring release, but I thought that would be April and I could have a garden party. First week in March is iffy here for something outdoors. But maybe I could do an afternoon at the Denver Botanic Gardens? Or an evening soiree at a restaurant after the reading? Or the African American Research Library? Maybe save the garden party for a mothers and daughters event around Mother's Day?

Anybody got any ideas? If you had or attended a book launch party that was especially great, please let me know what made it so. Besides tying the theme to the book, what other considerations should I be looking at?

Friday, September 07, 2007

Small world


I met Karen Degroot Carter, author of One Sister's Song, today. (Lisa, where were you?) It was a joy to meet her. And funny because I know the woman who was one of her editors. I also met a writer named Sheri Keasler, and it turns out we have the same agent. My world is getting smaller (and bigger) every day.
Karen, thanks for the book!

Thursday, September 06, 2007

Haywood's Harvest

You like peppers? I got some peppers, Haywood called. Sure, I said. He went in his backyard and came back with these beauties, and some plums.

How'd you get so many? The squirrels don't steal them? I asked. Nah, Haywood said, I got lots of plums. As if he'd never heard of rascally squirrels running off with your produce.

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

Speaking of weddings and anthologies...

I submitted the following essay to an anthology about getting married after 30. It was accepted, but to my knowledge the book was never published. So I shall publish it here.

Not a Princess, But Still a Bride

Although Disney has started spinning out cartoons with dark-skinned heroines, it's still hard for a black woman to imagine herself as Cinderella, especially a black woman over 30. To me, the concept of a wedding as "your one special day" was bunk, a myth propagated by bridal magazines. Even if I was rich, I wouldn't want to blow my money on anything as silly and soulless as a fantasy wedding.

Or so I thought. When I was about to be married, I fell victim to the bridal-industrial complex, and the desire for a lavish wedding hit me like a craving for Enstrom's toffee. I didn't need a Vera Wang gown or a champagne fountain, but I wanted luscious food and beautiful flowers. I wanted everyone my boyfriend and I loved to be present to midwife our birth into something greater than we were separately. Unfortunately, we were broke. We had been living artists' lives, and the only thing that fit our meager budget was a small, courthouse ceremony and a potluck at our rasty little house with the hideous kitchen floor and running toilet.

So on a warm, sunny gift of a day at the end of January 1999, we went to the courthouse. Our families flew in from Seattle, Chicago and St. Paul, all of us meeting for the first time. Full of good wishes for us, no one mentioned the bride was black and the groom was white. A few friends, my ex-boyfriend's mother and my aunt and cousin, who brought butterfly barrettes for me to wear in my hair, joined us at the courthouse.

Our relatives and friends didn't care that we were an interracial couple, but the staff in the judge's office seemed to disapprove. The judge we booked had an emergency and we had to wait for a different judge. When I asked his secretary, a black woman, how long it would be until he was available, she took in my caramel skin and almost-dreadlocked hair and said I wasn't on the schedule.

"But my boyfriend was just in here," I said.

She stared at me and said sarcastically, "You're his bride?" Then shot a mean look at the other clerk, who was also black.

As much as I wanted to tell her off, I wasn't about to justify my heart to her or to anyone, so I made sure she knew we were still waiting and sashayed back into the hallway to watch the drunk drivers, wife beaters and gang members go by.

When the judge was ready, we all went into a small courtroom. Our loved ones sat in the jury box and the judge joked "What's the verdict on this union?" The ceremony - unplanned and presided over by a man we never met - was so much of what I wanted to say that I cried and the "jury" sniffled along. At the end, when my husband and I kissed, everyone burst into applause, and suddenly a party at home seemed like a fabulous idea.

Sixty people attended, bringing more food than we could eat and more champagne than we could drink. Guests congregated everywhere, even the laundry room. My husband and his friends played jazz in the living room. Like Martha Stewart on ecstasy, I went from room to room, barefoot, clutching a plastic cup of champagne, offering food and drinks and hugging everyone. I needn't have worried about our house.

Our guests were too busy eating and talking to look down at the ugly linoleum. Nobody could hear the toilet running over the trumpet, saxophone, drums and bass. It was balmy for a January evening, but it was the music, food, laughter and love that truly warmed us, enchanting us as if we were in a fairytale.

But I wasn't a princess. I was a middle-aged black woman thrilled to be married to a middle-aged white man with a love for me as solid as the double bass booming in the background. I was a goddess with bare feet and butterflies in my hair. I was a bride, with all the giddiness and glory attributed to that word. And it was my one special day.

Call for stories

Anthologies are a great way to get published. They usually don't pay a lot, but they can help build your case with a publisher when you're trying to sell a book-length work.

Don't know if anybody at this blog is much into golf, fishing, surfing or weddings, but....
Casagrande Press is seeking golfing, fishing, surfing, and wedding stories for four upcoming anthologies. (Golf's Greatest Misadventures , Fishing's Greatest Misadventures, Surfing's Greatest Misadventures Vol. 2, and Weddings' Greatest Misadventures) The press is looking for nonfiction, first-person misadventure stories such as those involving bad judgment calls, pranks, comical/ironic episodes, disaster, animal attacks, misfortune, injury, loss of wit, panic, temper flare-ups, rough weather, critical conditions, trip or game meltdowns, everyday fears, bizarre injuries, etc. The editors are looking for well-written stories that tell a good tale, reflect a culture, and develop character depth while maintaining a tight narrative tension. There is no fee to submit a story. Writers paid upon publication. Submit online at http://www.casagrandepress.com/. Deadlines vary for each book.

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

Too funny!

IT people everywhere are probably getting a huge kick out of this. Thanks to Brenda Coulter's great website for the link.

Monday, September 03, 2007

This time last year

Last Labor Day I was in a completely different space physically and mentally. Hubby and I took 5 days and drove to the Grand Canyon. It was absolutely beautiful country with vistas the likes of which I'd never seen.









Things on the book front were not going well. Orange Mint and Honey wasn't selling. My agent said not to worry, but, of course, I did. I started to lose faith that it would ever sell. Before we went on vacation, I wrote in my journal that I was going to let it go. I was worn out from gripping the faith so tightly, so I was going to leave it to my agent and my husband and my family and friends to keep believing for me. I pictured our hope as a large piece of glass that I had been holding up for years and it was just too heavy for me at the moment, but I knew that I had lots of people who would hold it up for me while I let go. I was going to go away and have a good time and not brood about it. And that's what I did. I had other things to worry about.




Like for example, did you know the Grand Canyon was up so high? I did not. I thought it would be like in Thelma and Louise and you stay flat and then all of the sudden the land opens up into a giant hole. No! People, no! That is not what happens. You go up, up and up! Then you look down into the beautiful big hole and see that it is full of mountains and valleys. And you feel humble in the face of such beauty.


























Nor did I know that to go into Arches National Park (in Moab) you go up a long winding road WITH NO GUARDRAILS. WTF??! I was the one driving and it was not pretty. Which is why we only went up as far as Park Avenue and The Three Gossips (which I called The Three Wisemen), which are spectacular and made me wish I was braver so we could have seen Delicate Arch.














After the Grand Canyon we went to Mesa Verde to see the cliff dwellings. Now a smart person would probably put it together that "cliffs" go with "height." Thankfully, I did not or I never would have saw them. And I'm glad I did.
I also got to put one foot in 4 states (Arizona, New Mexico, Colorado and Utah) at the same time. And got to try India fry bread-yum!


So with all the literally awesome scenery and the heights, my little monkey mind was too busy to worry about my book.
The day after we returned my agent called with the 1st offer. It was 4 months from the time she agreed to rep me. The offer was for a smaller advance than we'd hoped, so we were disappointed, but it was an offer. Tellingly, I wasn't excited. I kept telling myself, You have an offer! Your book is going to get published! You should feel excited. But then...another publisher was interested and that's when it got exciting. One World/Ballantine wanted to make an offer. My agent emailed. They want to know if you have another book. Why yes I do, I said. Email me a 1-liner, she said. That, I didn't have. But I did have a 1-paragraph pitch, which I sent and my agent forwarded it to Ballantine. The editor responded, "Sounds intriguing." Doesn't get any better than an editor using the word intriguing about an idea of yours. The following week they came in with their offer for a 2-book deal for the Random House Reader's Circle Program and a much better advance.
This Labor Day, Orange Mint and Honey galleys are being made, and I'm 143 pages into my 1st draft (actually the 3rd first draft) of the 2nd novel in the 2-book deal. And I feel enormous gratitude for all those who held up that hope for me when I couldn't do it for myself.